Time, date, place
(& worst—the likely rating)
Puts me on edge
Cramps my shoulder
Damps my humor
Shuts my stomach down
Results means nothing in the larger picture
Not life, love, income, health, security
No one but me will even give a damn
How I perform
Less impact than a
A sodden batch of dough
I’m being disingenuous.
I know exactly what this is
Recognize the tightness in my gut
I might fail, and failing, fall to meet
My secret estimation of myself
So—knowing that, what then?
It’s just psychology…intangible, correct?
Not a fleshy wound that takes its own sweet time
How long could it take to
Change a mind?
Flip a switch and make electrons course on
A new path?
If it can be done at all…
I would have to
Reprogram my thesaurus to cross-index to
To overwrite an eon of conditioning
Wired to demand a
Nothing but the best
Something to consider—you parents out there
Shepherding your kidlings to the strip
What’s the price of
When will the debt come due?
Maybe decades hence
My advice—lionize a ‘failure,’ now and then.
Break out the cookies, celebrate and go home